just stay out of my way and ill stay out of urs....ill be gone soon enough.

I cant do this any more...Ive been sitting around waiting for somthing to change. waiting for someone to come by with the answer to all my problems. well thats not happening so ive gotta start from square one. I think its time i just go into my own world again until im back on track. so i seem distant...dont worry its not u. see ya around everybody.

so tired....all the time. sleep 4 hours sleep 20 hours. doesnt matter. so much strain. no matter what i do i feel like im trying my hardest and getting no where. whats happening to me?

Why do i even try? I keep coming back to that question. i make all these strides and expend all this effort only to always end up back in the same place. Thats life i guess....at least thats what im told. but if thats the case is there any reason to keep trying. For happiness ? So far for what ive seen for every bit of happiness the is 2wice the sorrow to follow. thats not something i want to get used to.